Sunday, September 25, 2005

Little updates

Been thinking about the future nowadays more than I used to since my birthday. My birthday was a very nice day. Had wines, pizzas all around and as well with friends.

I think I'm beginning to grow up more now. I see myself to actually be dominant than to let people ordering me about like it was used to. Unfortunately, I have the feeling that I kindda like ordered people around. I see myself to see things in another view which I am trying to see more of these. I see myself to be less of a shy person. I try not to be whom I don't want myself to be. I let myself to enjoy each moment like its never going to happen again.

I miss a lot of people now. I still miss my ex but I know I have to move on.... I see myself to be alone and thinking of not marrying. Ironically, I used to always say that I would marry when people asked. Now, hello the new Yanti....

Somehow, I let myself be comfortable with strangers. This lead to people asking me out and yes, I'm a fool, giving people my no... But what the heck... I love meeting new people anyway....

Suki was hospitalized. Something wrong with her kidney. This is also one of the reasons why I want to enjoy each day that I'm alive. Suki is still young. I mean, she is around my age and yet, sickness just happen like that.

School have taken a lot of my time on weekdays and weekends are dedicated to friends but unfortunately, I have to upset some of my friends due to the fact that I just don't have enough time during the weekdays...

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Blue and crying....

Been a long time since I blogged. Been down and only those I trusted that I told them about it. I'm sad and everything and I'm in self denial right now.

School have been hectic, with hectic schedules and hectic work load. Classes always end so late. Always after 3 pm. So I might not have time to do blog as much as I used to.

Habis sudah air mata sang kekasih
Meratapi kekasihnya tak berubah
Karna cinta tak mau dikhianati
Juga cinta tak mau terbagi-bagi
Itu sebabnya
Dan habislah rasa didada yang menyiksa
Akhirnya jawabannya ketulusan